Emotional day...=)

What would U do if every time U fell in love with someone U had to say good-bye?

What would U do if every time U wanted someone they would never be there?

What would U do if for every moment U were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness?

What would U do if your close one died tomorrow and U never got to tell them how U felt?

What would you do if you loved someone more than anything else and you could never have them?

Some people live and some people die.

But I want to tell you I love you and you are my love one...

That I will always be here for you when and if you need me...

If I died tomorrow, you would be in my heart forever.

Would I be in yours?

So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to U again in my life, U are special to me and U have made a difference in my life.

I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you.



I LOVE YOU ALL>>>TRULY DEEPLY LOVELY HAPPILY...




I suddenly feel tat I am so emotional this few days.........my tears like will drop any time and anywhere or listen to song like cry on my shoulder where I nit to control it so that I wont let anyone noe....
- I miss everyone in the house....
- I miss my family as I dint c them for 2 weeks de....
- I miss U like nobody noes....
- I just feel tat I am insecure without any reason.....
- I being ignored without reason....

BUT I am happy tat I have my family tat always there for me....tat the time I feel secure.....
BUT I am happy to have the AXIS family tat always care me without any complain....
BUT I have all of U...too make me happy and cheer up.......
I will ignored the useless one and appreciated the love one......

<3 U r always in my mind and heart.....

in love with this song Ru guo you ru guo....=)

这 世 界 如 果 有 如 果
zhè shì jiè rú guǒ yǒu rú guǒ
如 果 一 切 重 头 如 果 你 再 说 你 爱 我
rú guǒ yì qiè chóng tóu rú guǒ nǐ zài shuō nǐ ài wǒ
习 惯 阿 熟 悉 的 温 柔
xí guàn ā shú xī de wēn róu
turn around turn around turn around

怎 麽 还 是 一 个 我
zěn me hái shì yí gè wǒ
雨 滴 滴 答 答 的 坠 落 还 有 什 麽 说 不 出 口
yǔ dī dī dā dá de zhuì luò hái yǒu shén me shuō bù chū kǒu
泪 不 停 不 停 的 滑 落 习 惯 没 有 你 的 角 落
lèi bù tíng bu tíng de huá luò xí guàn méi yǒu nǐ de jiǎo luò

I want to sing a song for you
sing for myself
没 有 你 的 天 空 没 有 云 朵
méi yǒu nǐ de tiān kōng méi yǒu yún duǒ

you are my everything and I really love you
在 泪 乾 了 以 後 想 听 你 说 爱 我
zài lèi qián le yǐ hòu xiǎng tīng nǐ shuō ài wǒ

想 太 多 如 果 有 如 果
xiǎng tài duō rú guǒ yǒu rú guǒ
如 果 永 远 爱 我 如 果 最 後 能 到 最 後
rú guǒ yóng yuǎn ài wǒ rú guǒ zuì hòu néng dào zuì hòu
一 个 人 该 习 惯 什 麽
yí gè rén gāi xí guàn shén me

turn around turn around turn around
习 惯 晚 安 自 己 说
xí guàn wǎn ān zì jǐ shuō

雨 滴 滴 答 答 的 坠 落 还 有 什 麽 说 不 出 口
yǔ dī dī dā dá de zhuì luò hái yǒu shén me shuō bù chū kǒu
泪 不 停 不 停 的 滑 落 习 惯 没 有 你 的 角 落
lèi bù tíng bu tíng de huá luò xí guàn méi yǒu nǐ de jiǎo luò

I want to sing a song for u
sing for myself
没 有 你 的 天 空 没 有 云 朵
méi yǒu nǐ de tiān kōng méi yǒu yún duǒ

you are my everything and I really love you
在 泪 乾 了 以 後 却 还 记 得
zài lèi qián le yǐ hòu què hái jì dé

还 记 得 青 苹 的 酸 甜 酸 到 心 里 没 有 感 觉
hái jì dé qīng píng de suān tián suān dào xīn lǐ méi yǒu gǎn jué 梦 太 美 回 忆 太 心 碎 再 多 给 我 一 点 点 的 勇 气
mèng tài měi huí yì tài xīn suì zài duō gěi wǒ yì diǎn diǎn de yǒng qì

I want to sing a song for u
sing for myself
没 有 你 的 天 空 没 有 云 朵
méi yǒu nǐ de tiān kōng méi yǒu yún duǒ

you are my everything and I really love you
在 泪 乾 了 以 後 想 听 你 说 love you
zài lèi qián le yǐ hòu xiǎng tīng nǐ shuō love you

这 世 界
zhè shì jiè
如 果 有 如 果
rú guǒ yǒu rú guǒ
如 果 一 切 重 头
rú guǒ yì qiè chóng tóu
如 果 你 还 在
rú guǒ nǐ hái zài
请 说 你 爱 我
qǐng shuō nǐ ài wǒ

blurrr!!!

i m so blurrr for myself...as i donno wat m i thinking and wat m i worrying......
i m quite suffer becoz i cannot say out wat i feel and wat i think....therefore i juz nit to pretend donno and don think so much to make myself even sad.....i donno how i m goin to face or go on as ppl keep saying it....sometimes i jus hate ppl keep say about it.....i reali reali hate but i cannot do anythin....i know we don look alike and i don we don do things together....i juz be myself and this is me....i don care wat ppl say...but sumtimes it reali influence my thinkin......therefore i nit to rest........
i donno how to continue de.....=(

outdated blog..=b

ermmmm...very long dint update my blog de......
reali long.....

my life....????
shuld be the same.....
juz start a new sem...and it is the critical year mean final year for me...
things getting uneasy for me......
i feel stress since the sem start....becoz i got bad feeling.....i feel very difficult to go thru all this moment....sumtimes i juz feel of giving up...but i noe this is one of the stupid reason that i m thinking....i already gone thru till here how can i stop......

i m in the second week of the sem....during the first week is reali difficult to over....the time pass very slow......as i got nothin to do....i feel very upset when i m in KL.....i keep think that how good i m in klang now....how good i got u beside me....how good i can chat and watch movie wit my family.....how good i can eat my mother cut punya fruits.....becoz everynite i get to eat my mum cut punya fruits...but at KL i cant get to eat any fruits....i reali miss them when i got nothin to do....i will keep think.......another reason i m boring becoz steph is not around for 2 weeks...i cant get sumone to chat and gossip around.....luckily i still got my roommates and lao ah peh talking, playing and taking care of me.... i feel very happy to have u all....and i got the mother feel from lao ah pek...as he keep remind me to drink water when i m ill....i oso got from vicky and angeline, my roommates. another one is my chef, uncle poh that cook for us nice food.......but i juz nit the 7 of us always together becoz when sumone is miss out will become very weird.....

august and september is reali busy months.....
cant reali have time to get along wit my family and u.....
most of my time is already a must to go KL....
it is one of the sad things for me as i cant get along wit u all.....
i will appreciate the time wit u all......
God pls give me more time...
so tat i can have more time to be wit the person i wan wit....
I <3 u all...=)
i juz hope u all will take care as i m not around wit u all.....
take care....miss u....=b....

babies is not around....

cant believe 3 babies died de.....
they are quite big de....tot i will have another babies....
maybe too many ppl c them de.....and they are too stress.....
bad news....sad betul.......

its already the second week.....i m goin back to class soon....
stressful life is goin to be here again....=(

i m happy tat i got my first birthday present....
thx to my dad...=)
<3.......thx to mummy too.....

Juz Accept It!!!!

everyone has their own problems and life....so do I....
I never hope for more...and
I never hope for less too.....
I will never complaint on what I lack of....but
I still have feeling toward jealousy and sadness....
I hope for more is just that I hope u can change.......
I have bad feeling.....on what I m thinking of....=(
I just hope everything will be alright....



I have to accept the things that i see and i feel....
things turn different and everything change.....
I hate it so much....but just have to accept it.....
maybe i had fault but i did apologized......



hope my decision is correct.....
and hope i wont regret for it....


cant wait for it...=)
I don hope for something special..but
I hope for something make me happy...
and I nit the care from u...because I m not as strong as u think of......